okay. i'm going SA tmr for training. i hope everything goes well. eh c'mon la. (=

it's like so near yet so far huh? for the first time, i found that this quote kind of applies. i felt like that when i hung out with the group last friday. and i think i probably will feel that when i'm in SA tmr. it's entering the school that ur friends are studying in and knowing the fact you guys won't talk to each other or even see each other. it's that bad huh? it's the same for the gang. polys and wherever, when we meet up, you guys would probably be tagged by a girl and everything. or worst, talking about ur classmates. i hate that. but do you know?

i think when we meet up once more, the feeling is going to be sooo strange. in fact, even now, when we talk online, there's like an invisible barrier in between us. we don't talk like we used to. we don't laugh like we used to. we no longer talk about our future together. and all those craps.

hah. good luck everyone. good luck.

oh nono, i need all the luck in the world. (=

gilbert

EUPHORIA!

i feel so enlightened and euphoric! after spending about 2 hours, i finally understood what the hell is PRICE ELASTICITY OF DEMAND! what the hell. i reread the lecture slides and notes i've made (which were kinda messy cos i had no idea what was i copying) like about 3 times?! and i finally caught the BALL! now, it's the tutorial. boo~

now, having a small break from flipping through the pages of the lecture book. perfect.

okay, im like stoning right now cos im at loss for words. hmm.

you know what!? i've been using the word "irritating" alot of times last week, and i can guarantee that it's gonna be more frequently used this week. this week and next week is so heavily packed! there is touch rug on tuesday, wednesday and friday. econs test on thursday. and POOF! the whole week is gone! and the next week is worst! touch rug on tuesday, thursday. some hiphop aerobics on tuesday also. dragonboating on wednesday. and sports day on friday! and the following week is crazy too!

i can't wait for dragonboating! so exciting!! hahaha. im gonna be so tanned till my mom's gonna kill me once again. i think my mom and dad are gonna kill me many many times. my gastrits are acting up again. and my knee hurts when i run. like boo. im gonna get tanned.

so many stuffs to do and so little time. and i used to think time, to me was abundance. not now anymore! i doubt i'll have the time to blog, but i hope i can still squeeze in time. cos, sometimes, it's really good to rant on and on.

oh yes. i need time to sleep. alot of time to sleep. if only i can apply leave from sch for 2 days and sleep. hah. dream on.

i love gilbert, i realise.

gilbert = love.

HAhAHA. reallllllyyyyy. <3

okay. gotta mug already.

(=

i feeel liiikkeee wwwhhhiiinnniiinnngggg ttooooo ssssoooommmeeeoooneeee!

it hurts to be away from them. )=

but it's okay.

they're close to my heart.

i love them

had an unexpected meet up with the gang today. i simply love them to loads. mat and pseng came late, and by the time they arrived, i was like dying of starvation. haha. we had GENKI SUSHI at the end anyway. mathew was really sweet though. and chee ko peh at the same time. lol.

though we didn't really caught up much on our lives, still ,i am very happy that we met up. i hope we can meet every month (=. AND WHAT'S WRONG WITH WEARING FBT SHORTS?!

touch rug training was not as tensed as the prev one. i think i caught the bug. (oh man, i suck). while we were running and jumping and throwing balls and everything, my whole body was perspiring BUT my hands were freezing cold. so weird. i don't wanna get sick at this moment, i got napha la.

anyways, im gonna sleep real in tomorrow. i dont care. dont wake up also can. HAHA.

okay. the bed's calling and eyes falling. gotta go, see you tomorrow!

IT RHYMEESSSS!!! =D

i just feel like running and running to the end.

literally and mentally. i'm dead serious.

i hate myself now. i hate that reflection i see every morning.

hi bitch.

)=

it's been a bad day, i suppose.

i was almost late for school
i forgot to bring my GC
i left my file in school
i can't do my pw cos my file's in school

and i think the pi is dued tmr. wth la.

okay, let's look on the bright side

i wasn't late for school
my teacher didn't catch me for not bringing the GC
elana helped to keep my file
no pw = more slp!

and i also think PI's due on friday.

life isn't that sucky afterall.

but then again, maybe not

)=

post touch rug camp

and i thought i would die. i'm glad i did not! i've survived the entire camp! although it was crazy, but hey, i survived! had many team bonding sessions and lame talks among the teammates. oh yes, and also very inspirational talks by mr andrew himself. i think i should go get some inspirational posters and paste all over my room. haha.

i'll post up the pics once mr andrew sends us the pictures. but WARNING: it's super unglam. HAHA. serious! all of us were like under the hot sun, squinting our eyes and he just had to come up and *chi kah* a photo of us or either we are being punished, sprinting and running like mad cows. and then, he'll *chi-kah*. however, i think the part that we were doing on the passing/popping/flicking of ball will be cool. just imagine he caught one of us trying to catch the ball and the ball is in mid air, COOL RIGHT?!?! haha. i think the photos are gonna be damn hilarious. i can just imagine myself laughing. worst, mr andrew said he's gonna decided what is glam and unglam. -sighs. apocalypse already. haha

sok lynn and some of us were talking about our decision of joining touch rug while walking to our lockers. nope, i didn't regret choosing touch rug as my CCA, i didnt regret for not putting NCC as an external CCA. i doubt i'll ever regret. =) OH YAH! and we were talking about ghost stories at night. we scared the daylights out of ourselves. LOL. ASLI LAH! all her fault. hahah. but it was damn cool. brigette came over in the middle of the night just to join in the fun of ghost stories session with us. and she was telling me that one of the teammates and her were like poking the frogs with a weed cos the frog was about to enter the classroom. THERE ARE LIKE SO MANY FROGS! what if it slept with me in my sleeping bag!? no la, kidding. :D

oh man, i love camps! (=

WE CAN, WE WILL, WE MUST!
WHOOOSH! =D

what the hell!

TOUCH RUGBY CAMP~!

OH MAN, WE'RE SO GONNA GET TEKAN! I FEEL LIKE A CADET IN NCC! HAHAHA. SOOO COOOOL. RELIVING MEMORIES! (=

so, it's tmr till saturday to die. i END AT 3.30pm. *hints hints*

THREE THIRTY IN THE AFTERNOON.
TIGA HALF JAM. HAHAHA. i dont know0
SAN DIAN BAN.
SA TIAM PUA.

*HINTS HINTS*

hahahahah! WHAT THE HELL!

ok. i go pack bag alr! lovelove. miss me k! (=

boys and boots

i dread taking out my phone. cos i'm soooo afraid to see his sms. if i were to see his sms, i would have just died from happiness and depression. i swear i tell you. BLAH.

touch rug training today was sooo fun!. haha. i don' know if it's the training doesn't seem that hard anymore or has my stamina has improved. although i would love the latter! ((= school's SO NOT OKAY I TELL YOU. there's like peeping tom in SR la! they'll come into the girls toilet and take pic/video of girls doing business or whatever in the toilet. so sick! like what's wrong with them? after we were told about this devastating news (cos we can't pee in peace anymore), the girls were feeling very paranoid. and they started saying, "what if they put the spy cam in the toilet bowl?!" funnily freaky.

OH YAH. i went to get my boots with asli, xiaowei & charmaine! haha. asli and i were saying,"4 bitchy girls went to queensway to get boots for rugby!" HAHA. love my boots. it's adidas! not bad la. i love it! (=

nice?! =D. i had to get the junior pair cos the adult shoes were way too small for my feet! haha.

anyways, jannie and i were talking about guys a few nights ago, apparently, i told her about spastic ball(HAHA!). and she was saying, guys who are like 3 or 4 years older than us make good boyfriends cos their state of mind has been mature-ised! not as kiddo as some boys. sometimes, i feel that girls once in awhile would love to be showered with love and everything. obviously some boys are dumb enough to not realise it.

they're either dumb, or dumb. choose one. huH!

i think boys who are shy and sweet are super irresistable. reaLLy!! (= okay, enough with the boys topic. =D

im actually quite afraid that i'll change in this new environment. because i've already spotted an apparent change in many of my friends. im super scared. because when one changes, they won't know.

oh man!

HAHA.

what

i wrote a couple of my thoughts at certain points of today. although it was practically revolving around 1 subject, i realised. it's all about that someone. bahh

kahjun's birthday was fantabulously celebrated! i miss the gang la. and mathew was sweet enough to hug me (=. and both of us fooled around, pretending we're attached. haha. yes yes, i know, we're very compaitable. =D he agrees on it too! so it isn't that bad. while saying goodbyes, i almost cried! carissa and jannie were sweet yet sly to give me 2 kisses on my cheeks! oh the horror! i got stunned. so scary. HAHA. this is like the 2nd time i got kissed on the cheeks already. first was atiqah(that random belo), than it's the both of them. you know how freaked out i get when people wants to kiss me for no apparent reason. oh well, unless.. it's him.. HAHA. whatever lynette, whatever.

Anyway, i thought about hazicko today! cos while doing econs essay, the songs playing in my mp3 were all so sirhanish. REALLY! first it was Another Song (All over again) - JT, than it was Disease, than the "build me up buttercup" song. HAHA, so sirhan la. i was laughing. okay. i don't know why i was laughing, but yup. than the next few songs reminded me of brennon and mabel. )=

i didn't eat the whole day of today. HAHA. have to uphold sirhan's lingo and be a 'hot lalat' HAHAAH (= no la. kd.

i was, indirectly waiting for surprises to happen today. and also that he would just pop out from the middle of nowhere and make today the lunch date he was referring to. but then, i was afraid if today was the lunch date, i would never see him again. yep.

i wasn't feeling too good today. maybe i got sick and tired of pretending. perhaps eh.. i felt soooo damn bad today until i felt like crying my eyes out in the toilet.

bleah.

53rd CLT course

the 53rd CLT course was fun! although i wasn't one of the trainers, or was i one of the cadets. But seeing the 53rd CLTs pass out with a happy face, i can't help but feeling a little emo at that point time. it was a combination of both sadness and happiness. you know. *rolls eyes* lol.

I came at the 2nd last day, which was the POC itself. i rushed to HQ immediately after touch rugby training just to attend the ceremony of couple of my friends - maisarah, yaw khong, boju, ai cheong, shengbiao. (= yup yup seeing them happy really makes me feel very elated! OH, maisarh was the OVERALL OUTSTANDING CADET OKAY! SRJC!!!! WHOOOOO. and her bf was there too. it was coolness.

well, yaw khong... everyone calls him IAN. i don't care, i'll stick to calling him yaw khong. kaysiao ar he. he's damn funny. i see him everyday at school. so, nothing really much to say about him. ooops =x HAHA.

BOJU!! oh yes! BOJU! how could i forget this kuku. he came up to me after the parade (yes, i didnt talk to him after he said he didnt recognise me! >:( ) and said that he remembers me! he said that i've changed alot and it took him very long to recall who am i. HAHA. he makes me laugh. and he kept saying, "真的!真的!" funny lar. but he booked out that night after POC, so we didn;t really chat much. he just kept smiling when i congratulated him.

AICHEONG! camp pinn camp pinn! camp pinn says it all la! hahah my platoon mate somemore! REALLY I LOVE THOSE DAYS YOU KNOW!! (= i didn;t manage to congratulate him. cos it was too crowded and i had too many things to do at once. (=

shengbiao! haha. syf guy! i reached him when the MC said that we have to go back to our seats cos the POC has to continue. i wanted to shake his hand to congratulate him, but the mc said that there's not enough time. still, HAHA, he put out his hand and said "nvm, still got time!" haha! he's another one that kept smiling. LOL.

I SLEPT AT 3 that night! cos i was smsing and also talking to jim they all. damn funny. what laughing buddha and everything. the room was freezing cold i tell you! hahaha. i woke up at 7am. cos the CDTS->CLTS were making noise outside. dont know how and when, i ended up chasing birds from the dustbins. hahah. morning exercise la dey.

HQ IS LOVE! haha. i love the three Lieutanents! lt teo, lt tan, lt lee! (= lt teo gave me the rose that sue gave him! ahaha. funny funny.

i shall post pics later on when i feel better, (=

nette(: eh. why are you so tall?! says:
last year SYF met one. we all marching what! haha

nette(: eh. why are you so tall?! says:
than when i went back to hq, i saw him but i forgot his name

huixin (: says:
haha??

nette(: eh. why are you so tall?! says:
so yala!

♠ I could only give you everything I have. says:
marching then pao mei yan what

nette(: eh. why are you so tall?! says:
hahaha!

nette(: eh. why are you so tall?! says:
anyhow. sr nathan infront leh

huixin (: says:
haha

huixin (: says:
HAHAHAH

nette(: eh. why are you so tall?! says:
and he's like way behind

nette(: eh. why are you so tall?! says:
imagine pao mei yan, than got so many cameras behind sr nathan

nette(: eh. why are you so tall?! says:
later kena post till newspaper HOW?!

nette(: eh. why are you so tall?! says:
HAHA. no lar

huixin (: says:
HAHAHAH

huixin (: says:
WHO IS PAO MEI YAN??

huixin always makes me laugh. really. HAHA.

anyway, i watched A Cinderella's Story at channel 5 today! =D you know, one think i hate most about watching lovey lovey movies is what?

it's that i'll like some boy from the movie. so sickening. and so, in this 'movie', it's chad! (=. okay la. won't last long. when i watched harry potter, guess who i liked?!?! NOT POTTER BUT MALFOY!!! that's why i want to be in red house, cos it's DRACO! HAHA okay. lame. but anyways. (=

i went to HQ again! haha, this time, i said 'hi' to the nan chiau guy from SYF! and he went like "oh yah! long time no see!" HAHA. so cool. i like saying hi to people!
anyway. pictures time!

elana and i! hahah

elana, again. AHAH.
i and elana!
ms yeo's easter eggs for me, lana, yj and ter! (=
ms yeo's easter eggs!
me and elana with ms yeo's easter eggs elana's leg
my leg! ppg rocks ok
elana tan pei-ying
HQ HQ HQ! (=

raudah n i!

2nd home visit

i went to HQ NCC today. omg. i totally miss that place. infact, i miss it very much. serious. (= seeing how the CDTs were going through 53rd clt course just simply makes me wanna join them as a CDT and graduate together with them. haha

anyways, i saw so many peepo i knew in 53rd lah! really really! i saw alisa, that prcs ASM (i can't rmber their names), and BOJU! can you imagine?! i saw boju lar! haha he is this sickening idiot that helped me with my bag during ophir trip. and when i said 'hi' to him today. he gave me a stupid face. apparently he has forgotten about me! and i continued "walao, im the retarded girl that you helped to carry her bag during ophir!" than his whole platoon was laughing. haha. like wth. still, he didnt remember. =( in anycase, i've decided to be nice and said 'bye' to him as well. and i have this gut feeling that his platoon is thinking in a very wrong way. very vey wrong. LOL.

WAHH! and i saw the EAST clts! i just felt like hugging all of them you know!?!?! realllly! however, there were restrictions! i saw ah gong! and father also! apparently, they're still playing counter strike! HAHA. gosh. i miss them loads. OH YES, i saw VANESSA!!!! RAUDAH!!!! AND JIM!!!! my vertically challenged friend! (=. oh and IDAH, FEEQ AND RIFAH!!! hahaha so cool i tell you! not to forget, lt AIZAT AND LT LEE!! who never fails to call me 'hay bee hiam'. which means dried shrimps! haha, sickening. lt AIZAT said i look nicer in RED. which means, sun burnt me. *stares*

also also, there's this spec attached to HQ, he's damn nice and kelakar(sp). LOL. and what ever is CHOMEL?! no, it's in malay. not french. i'll whack you. really.

okay. i;ll bring my book tmr. HAHA.

OH YAH! touch rugby today was crazy! crazily fun i tell you! hahaha. we did circuit training. i did it with jul. so COOL LA. but now, certain parts of my body hurts like monkey! asli's too. )=. ouh well, nvm. HEEHEE. in total i think i ran 12 rounds. or something near there.

I RAN LIKE A MAD COW TODAY. I EVEN TOOK OF MY SHOES TO SHOW HOW SEMAGAT(SP) I AM. HAHA.

gosh, i love everyone!

really... maybe not. HAHA. REALLYYY! (=

I think I'm getting d e p r e s s e d again. HAH. Or should I say, I'm getting more and more fake as the days go by. Serious. No one's understanding. No one's bothered at all. How pleasant.

Anyway, some of the crappy stuffs that happened in school. Although it concerns the art students more, but what the hell.

me: eh! we look like shit.
ter: yah! i can't even bear to look at the mirror. just. just stop it!
me: we look like diarrohea. HAHA
elana: we sound like this! blop blop blop!

ok. not funny. self amusement can?!

argh.